Ҳ always laugh with 'em ...and cry when no one is near Ҳ
a crazy day..laughing and smiling all the day long
and a pillow socked with tears in the end of it .....
jokes..chit chat.. coca..and biscuits ..
aww it was so good..never been happy like that before...
but happiness dont fit with people like me..i wonder why !!
7.30 pm and me home..7.35 pm and me leaving it
to where...?!
i didn't know where to go ..was just lost
high heels wondering in the neighbourhood..and eyes burning
so sleepy.. but am already in a Dream ...
or thats what i thought at least !!
crying like a fool .. hiding my face so no catch my tears
thats what i used to do..thats what i inhertied from him
don't show your weakness to anyone.. always laugh
and cry when no one is near......
i know oneday i will die in same way he did.. they will betray me
i know they will
bloody tears dad...and a broken heart
got no place to go..and no chance to get back either..
faces staring at me..hell no
i just felt that ......when you are hurted and bleeding you just think
everyone notice..but what you don't know..
that a crying face..is an invisble one too.....
a bridge..and that river...darkness and fear
still no chance to get back
can't handle the pain anymore..but have to
more steps to go...
here i am..between her arms..my tears are drying now
she didn't see them..thank god for the night..you can hide pain no one
can handle on it..and sleepy eyes will think ..it is just her pretty eyes
are glistening this days more than ever..
her..and him ...on a bed surronded by death from everyside
and raugh voice repeating..(( i cant hear you..cant hear you))
her..with a smile.. thats the neighbour's daughter
the raugh voice wont stop .. who is she!!
repeating again and again
just couldn't handle it so left before i cause more pain to a heart
..already broken
more arms to hold me..still i didn't feel warm like that i found on hers
uncle..auntie....and strangers are the same
on the bus ,,thinking for how long their mistakes will ruin my life!!
and a message..you will know ..one day you will be here in my place.
no.. i never lost someone's trust
never thought ..i will get all that pain..from the one i always thought
he is the one there for me whenever i need,,,no one to blame but me
went home when i shouldn't do...
and him... named himself a lover?!!
a lover didn't gave me anything but extra pain..
and made me lose trusting in all his kind..
and one more letter ...to apologize for that tears he gave me earlier..
loved you and will never love any girl the same way i did to you..
it was like ..u there am here..and a river between
u said lets meet..lets bulid a bridge to overcome the distance
i trusted you..for the first time i gave my trust to someone.
.and for the last time i will
so no.. thanks l... apology isn't and will never be ..accpeted..
and don't worry..the tears will dry someday
and the wound will heal..but ...
you will never learn how to love in the same way i did to you all
